Into Your Hands

Last words breathed out to the One who breathed into all creation–into you and me–the breath of life.

A Good Friday Reflection

“Father, into your hands I commend my spirit.” Luke 23:46

The realities of our lives—
All that we read about in the news or see happening around us:
Economic
Political
Spiritual
To what
To whom
do we commit these things?

“Father, into your hands I commend my Spirit.”

The things we value—love—hold dear
To whose hands do we entrust these things.

It is a part of life. We hand in
Hand over
Hand on
Hand off
“Put your hand in the hand of the one…”

Jesus—as he is dying—commends himself—his soul—the marrow of his bones– into God’s hands.
The hands of the one who delivered from the womb of creation
dolphins and dandelions, marsupials and marigolds
The hands of the one who ripped apart seas
to make a freedom way.
The hands of the one who scooped up mud from the river:
“we are the clay; you are the potter. We are all the work of your hands.”

What if God’s work—continues on beyond crucifixion
in our hands?

Gentle hands that have put Hello Kitty band aids on skinned knees. Arthritic hands that knit or build or garden through pain. Large hands that have held tiny hands as first steps were taken. Hands that set music free from pianos or organs or guitars. Hands that calm with a touch or write with a flair or feed with a fierce desire that none will go hungry. Hands that serve or wash or repair. Hands that resist with everything in them other hands that with clenched fist or the stroke of a pen or the push of a button mark the world with violence and hatred—

God, the potter.
We, the clay.
Our hands—the work of God’s hands.

“Father, into your hands, I commend my Spirit.”

Do we?
entrust
our lives—our well-being—our thoughts and feelings and wildest imaginings
Do we commend
our contingent existence
the whole of our lives in their radical temporariness–
Do we commend all of it—into God’s hands?

Too many too soon forget this—
the uncompromising impermanence of human living.
Or perhaps we—they—are all too aware of it—
So they—we—live in fear.
React to others with fear.
Soak faith in the bitter herbs of fear.
Cling to what little postmortem knowledge we have
with clenched hands animated by a redacted hermeneutic of fear.

But Jesus—in the end—
After splashing up out of Jordan’s waters
After calming seas and eating with tax collectors
But Jesus—in the end–
After refusing to be made king
After holding children in his arms
After breaking and blessing and giving
Here—Jesus—crucified—dying—even here:

“Father, into your hands I commend my spirit.”

“And having said this, he breathed his last.”
Jesus died. A childhood prayer on his lips.
Words of his mama’s faith—
Words learned as sun was setting on growing up days of laughter and play
now slipping from his pain-ridden body.

Psalm 31: “Into your hands I commend my Spirit.”
Last words.
Intimate words.
Breathed out to the One who breathed into him the breath of life.
Breathed out to the One who breathed into all creation—into you and me
the breath of life.

“Father, into your hands I commend my spirit.”

Do we?

Words Are Like Turtles

I hope that as we sometimes brood over empty screens in front of us we meet Spirit-mystery and encounter unexpected truths.

A new semester has begun!

As a teacher, I am excited about reading the written work of my students this semester. I know from past experience how many wonderful insights, questions, and big ideas surface from mysterious depths as students craft reflections and essays. I celebrate the gifts that await our shared discovery, springtime gifts just beneath the surface, soon to shoulder their way up through winter soil.

Even as I anticipate the gifts of student writing, I know that the semester will bring some long, perhaps even painful, nights when inspiration eludes both teachers and students, when our muse is more enemy than friend. For those moments when we are word-and-world-weary, I share this image from writer and poet, Pat Schneider:

Tonight, words are turtles
sleeping under mud.
Even when I poke them
they will not wake up.
Leave us alone,
their silence says.
When we decide to surface,
we will tell you what we dreamed.

PAT SCHNEIDER IN HOW THE LIGHT GETS IN: WRITING AS A SPIRITUAL PRACTICE

Writing is an intentional and inner act, Schneider says. She also says that “writing and prayer are both a form of love, and love takes courage.”

As we all poke countless sleeping turtles in our writing lives, I hope that we find courage to write with wisdom and honesty (to the best of our ability). I also hope that as we sometimes brood over the empty screen in front of us we meet Spirit-mystery and encounter unexpected truths.

Words of wisdom from Alice Walker:

When we let Spirit
Lead us
It is impossible
To know
Where
We are being led.
All we know
All we can believe
All we can hope
Is that
We are going
Home
That wherever
Spirit
Takes us
Is where
We
Live.

ALICE WALKER IN ABSOLUTE TRUST IN THE GOODNESS OF THE EARTH